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01 January 2013 @ 03:10 pm
Considering there are only less than 10 rules in being a member of this community, one would think everyone would follow them. But apparently people do not read the rules before joining, or they just choose to ignore them. This is becoming a very huge issue apparently. I am going to take this time to address each rule right now. If you do not follow EVERY rule I will ban you, as your mod I have that responsibility.

RULE #1: You must have an eating disorder to join this community. This isn't a quick fix to weight loss. You need to have a genuine eating disorder to post here.
Pretty self explanatory, isn't it? But we are CONSTANTLY getting people here saying how they want to lose weight because they simply feel 'fat'. That is not how an eating disorder works. And considering it's almost summertime I know there are going to be dozens of posts like that. I WILL be deleting them immediately before people can give them tips on how to loose weight in an unhealthy way.

RULE #2: Please put any pictures behind a cut, if you don't I will give you one warning and if you still fail to delete your post I will delete it.
This is an extremely important rule and everyday someone ignores it. I don't care if it's just a photo of your dog, it needs to be placed behind a cut. ESPECIALLY if it's something that could be triggering. If you do not know how to put a photo behind a cut it's very, very simple. Take a look here

RULE #3: Do not distribute dangerous advice to others that could harm them.
I cannot stress this rule enough. If I see a comment of someone telling another member how to purge, lose weight rapidly, or what diet pills or laxatives to use, I will delete your comment immediately. This community will NOT be the reason someone became ill, developed an eating disorder, or even died.

RULE #4: We do not encourage "group fasts" here. Do not ask for people to join you in harming yourself.
These 'group fasts' or 'texting buddies' can become very dangerous. Some people may even use them as a competition and therefore become very ill. I understand some people want the support of a texting buddy but I know for a fact most people will send a text to the other person telling them to stop eating or tell them 'they're strong enough not to eat.' Disgusting. It is also very dangerous on the account you have no idea who is on the other side of that phone. It could be ANYONE.

RULE #5: Do NOT post your exact location when/if filling in "Current Location". This is for your safety.
I know a lot of your phones automatically put your current location into your post, but it is strictly against the rules. All I'm asking is that you check your post once it's posted to make sure it is not added to it. If you do not delete it, your post will eventually be deleted itself with no warning.

RULE #6: Do NOT delete comments on your entry or replies.
This is very common with people who do not have an eating disorder to begin with. They get angry at what other members have to say, to keep them safe, so they end up deleting comments they don't like. I, as well as the other mod, will not tolerate this. It is out of respect you keep those comments on your posts, whether you like them or not. If they are harmful or disrespectful towards you, send a PM to me and I will take care of it.

Simple, right? If you have any problems with any of these rules, contact me through PM, or comment here.
My wife is in the military and is on rotation schedule. So basically she goes in at X time in the morning, works for 12-16 hours and gets out at Y time at night. She does this in rotation days - 2 on 2 off, 3 on, 2 off, 3 on.. etc etc, you get the picture it's kind of crappy but hey, military life.

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Sorry. I just needed to get that out. Thanks guys.
20 January 2017 @ 12:37 am
Im not doing very well... even if eating healthy was one of my goals...
I've been fasting and binging and exercising and binging again
I feel alone... I always feel alone and I shouldn't bcs I'm not alone.
Im struggling now with studies... I can't focus... that stress me out and stress makes focus harder...
idk what else to do... I mean I want to study but I can't... I feel sad and alone and I'm binging more than usual. I started to increase antidepressants dose... :( so sad... i wanted to stop taking antidepressants...instead I increased the dose.
I want to go to therapy again but I can't... no time for it and also I don't want my loved ones think I'm not ok... it makes me feel ashamed and I don't want them to worry about me.
Sometimes I feel I wish u were heard by someone who understands me...
i don't want my bf to know about this bcs he is going to worry and he is going to start watching my foods (he already does)
I don't know what to do... I mean I need help... I want to talk to someone but in the other side I don't want to ask for help... I don't want to worry anyone and I don't want the see I'm not ok at all.
I need someone to talk... I need help... problem is I don't want to ask for it...
19 January 2017 @ 01:35 pm

For those who have seen previous posts and been here a while, you will have seen I am in treatment for non ED related stuff. So I have over the years been able to nicely restrict and do as I wanted really with regards to food - its been up and down. However... the focus has now come round and settled very much on my eating (and rightly so I guess)... but now I am terrified. My latest relapse sees me getting close to numbers I havent seen in a very long time (like since school) and I dont want to give that up. But my team are great and are putting in a lot of support and hard work to make me feel supported. But I know I need to do my bit. One of them only so much as mentioned a meal plan and I crumbled.

For those of you who have been through ED treatments...do they make you start eating massive amounts straight away? (Please note I am not underweight really but recently have barely eaten much at all).

13 January 2017 @ 04:30 am
I want to preface this by saying I know how it's going to sound and it's going to sound bad but I have to get it off my freaking chest and I don't know where else to turn to. I'm sorry if this offends anyone or triggers you somehow - I really don't intend for it to be that way.

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Thanks for letting me rant guys. I feel better.
09 January 2017 @ 06:00 pm

Some days its an achievement to get a load of work done. Some days its an achievement to get washing and housework done. Some days its an achievement to go to the gym. Some days you can get all of this done.
And some days its an achievement just to make it to the end of the day. Today feels a little like that.
Whatever you have achieved today...you made it!☺

02 January 2017 @ 03:46 pm
Day two of my fruit fast, and today was a lot easier than yesterday. I'm drinking lots of lemon water and herbal tea and eating only minimal raw fruits to keep blood sugar up. The fruit fast/detox is set to go for 7 days, so on Sunday I can start integrating broths and solids with a fresh new body ready to do things right! Going back to work tomorrow, so hopefully I'll be OK when the stress hits back up. Hope you're all doing well!
02 January 2017 @ 05:38 pm

I was desperate to start the year with a fast, then yesterday happened and I suddenly didnt care what I ate... Today is a different story and I now hate myself even more. Typical ED...
On a positive though - it has been 3 weeks since I have had any alcohol. It is my first sober Xmas in about 14 years!! I have probably jinxed it now by telling you guys, but hey 3 weeks is massive at the moment...especially as I dont usually get passed 3 days and the first week or so I felt like I was dying! Hope you all had an ok New Years?!

01 January 2017 @ 02:58 pm
Hi everyone!! All the attitude to start this new year. I already washed my dogs and my car and I already went to run. Not much just 3km but better than nothing. I'm going to try 3km this week, 4km next week and then 5km in where I'm going to stay. I want to win a brides race in order to win something for my wedding :)
I also decided to start this year following a healthy meal plan instead of fasting or b/p so i hope I can do it :)
Of course I want to loose weight but I'll try it in a healthy way ***hope***